Thinking...

Okay first off let me say that this will sound more like me venting or ranting aimlessly more than anything.. (So sorry!) But anyway lately life seems kinda tough and uncertain and I know that as I get older that things will change and only get harder in life for me and all my life all I have ever wanted and prayed for was that God would show me His will that is specific to my life and what He wants me to do for Him and honestly I never have gotten a straight answer or felt lead to do any specific thing or have any specific job and that's disappointing to me as a Christian, also recently I decided that I would start a project that could maybe one day become a job so I and a friend planned the whole thing out and started working on this project and I got so excited about it but then my friend decided that it just wasn't going to work out and the plan didn't pan out...(when I say pan out I mean more like it died. Shot to the heart, my heart, it was like an airplane that had two engines but lost one and sputtered and spun plummeting to its certain death.) *insert explosion sound effect here* so needless to say it really disappointed me that it wasn't happening and made me feel that I possibly would never do anything great in the world (not that I want fame or anything) I just want to be able to reach people and to be a shining light for God so that maybe through me others would want to know Him. But anyway I have had a thought..  that maybe even if I don't know exactly what He has for me that wherever I am all He really wants is my heart and for me to serve Him no matter what I do and that I should go for whatever I want to and keep Him first through it all. And I don't know if that is right either but it's worth a try (going for whatever comes to mind that sounds like a fun job that I'll love doing I mean) so with that being said I have a new project (I say project because if it doesn't work out then well at least no one will know how I failed hahaha) I've started working on and I'm really hoping that it will work out. If it does at some point work out then I'll praise Him for it and if not I'll still praise Him.

Now you may or may not have or experienced something similar but if so here are a couple of Bible verses that helped me remember that it will all be okay and that worrying isn't worth it...=]

Romans 8:31
What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us?

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope

Sincerely,
Sarah xoxo